Dear Lilly at 5 months

Hey there pumpkin!

Wow, what can I say about these past two months. So much has happened it's hard to know where to start. You've grown from a little blob of jelly to a baby that can support herself and look around. You sit in your high schair now all by yourself and you're eating more than just yummy good stuff from mommy. Unfortunately, with that come really stinky poop that makes me want to pass out or lose my breakfast sometimes. I remember the night Logan came in with this look of utter amazement and said "she has human poop!" I laughed so hard and you laughed at me laughing.
I love it when you do so many things. I love it when you try to take the spoon from me when I'm feeding you and it gets all over your hair and your eyes and your neck. I still don't know how it got all the way under your diaper and stuck onto your butt that one day! I love it when we're in the car and I can call your name and you stretch your neck real hard to see me and then give me the biggest smile like you thought you were the only one in the car and then suddenly there I am! I love it when you are starting to get tired and you just bury your head into my chest and leave it there for a few seconds. Or when you just lay in my lap after eating and you just stare up at me with this look of complete satisfaction and contentment. I love it when you are having a blast in your jumperoo and I'll walk by and you automatically raise your arms and look at me with the most hopefull look on your face. These moments make my heart melt and I fall in love with you all over again.
I know that right now is a bit of a tough time because you are growing so fast and feel like you can do anything but then get frustrated when you can't. You have started rocking and lunging forward, so I know that crawling will come soon and I am just not ready for that at all. I can't believe you are going to be crawling and then walking soon. It just doesn't seem to have been that long for you to be crawling yet!

Well, I want you to know that I love you so very much and although you recently have liked to wake me up early early in the morning or be really really cranky at night, I still love you and will always love you. Thank you for being such a wonderful happy baby.