As I sit here looking at you, watching Judging Amy, I think to myself how wonderful you are. Every time you look at me you give me a smile. I can see that you are starting to get hungry and I will probably have to feed you in about 10 minutes. Feeding times seem to be one of my favorite times with you right now. Although we've had our ups and downs with that! Sometimes I just don't understand your frantic moving and clamping down. Sometimes I feel like you will just clamp down and take half of me with you. :)
I remember when I found out I was pregnant with you. The whole week up until the time I took that home test I just knew. Somehow I could tell. But I still cried like a baby when I found out. I was in shock. I couldn't believe that Daddy and I were pregnant, especially since I could recall the only time it could have happened and we had used all the precautions- including birth control. It was early, like 4:30 in the morning. I told grandma because I was living with her. I'm sure she had quite a shock as well. And then at 7:30 in the morning I was pounding on the door of my mom, asking her to go to a pregnancy test appointment at the college clinic. At 11:45 that day I found out that my home test was confirmed and I was indeed pregnant.
I look back now and all I can do is smile. Here I was, one semester of college left, your dad living in a complete different part of the US. I had so many ideas in my head as to how life would be and then I found out about you. I'll admit it, I was scared. But then I got so excited. Thinking about you, wondering what you were going to look like, feeling like I knew you already; I couldn't wait for you to be here! And now you're here. My little pride and joy. I love you so much, I want you to know that. I enjoy every part of you. Whether it be be
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ing fussy or being the happy little baby everyone knows you as. It's all worth it. I just thank God for bringing us you- our little miracle.
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